Monday, January 10, 2011

J. L. Borges

Los Espejos
Yo que sentí el horror de los espejos
no sólo ante el cristal impenetrable
donde acaba y empieza, inhabitable,
un imposible espacio de reflejos

sino ante el agua especular que imita
el otro azul en su profundo cielo
que a veces raya el ilusorio vuelo
del ave inversa o que un temblor agita

Y ante la superficie silenciosa
del ébano sutil cuya tersura
repite como un sueño la blancura
de un vago mármol o una vaga rosa,

Hoy, al cabo de tantos y perplejos
años de errar bajo la varia luna,
me pregunto qué azar de la fortuna
hizo que yo temiera los espejos.

Espejos de metal, enmascarado
espejo de caoba que en la bruma
de su rojo crepúsculo disfuma
ese rostro que mira y es mirado,

Infinitos los veo, elementales
ejecutores de un antiguo pacto,
multiplicar el mundo como el acto
generativo, insomnes y fatales.

Prolonga este vano mundo incierto
en su vertiginosa telaraña;
a veces en la tarde los empaña
el Hálito de un hombre que no ha muerto.

Nos acecha el cristal. Si entre las cuatro
paredes de la alcoba hay un espejo,
ya no estoy solo. Hay otro. Hay el reflejo
que arma en el alba un sigiloso teatro.

Todo acontece y nada se recuerda
en esos gabinetes cristalinos
donde, como fantásticos rabinos,
leemos los libros de derecha a izquierda.

Claudio, rey de una tarde, rey soñado,
no sintió que era un sueño hasta aquel día
en que un actor mimó su felonía
con arte silencioso, en un tablado.

Que haya sueños es raro, que haya espejos,
que el usual y gastado repertorio
de cada día incluya el ilusorio
orbe profundo que urden los reflejos.

Dios (he dado en pensar) pone un empeño
en toda esa inasible arquitectura
que edifica la luz con la tersura
del cristal y la sombra con el sueño.

Dios ha creado las noches que se arman
de sueños y las formas del espejo
para que el hombre sienta que es reflejo
y vanidad. Por eso no alarman.

Mirrors
I, who felt the horrors of mirrors
Not only in front of the impenetrable crystal
Where there ends and begins, uninhabitable,
An impossible space of reflections,

But of gazing even on water that mimics
The other blue in its depth of sky,
That at times gleams back the illusory flight
Of the inverted bird, or that ripples,

And in front of the silent surface
Of subtle ebony whose polish shows
Like a repeating dream the white
Of something marble or something rose,

Today at the tip of so many and perplexing
Wandering years under the varying moon,
I ask myself what whim of fate
Made me so fearful of a glancing mirror.

Mirrors in metal, and the masked
Mirror of mahogany that in its mist
Of a red twilight hazes
The face that is gazed on as it gazes,

I see them as infinite, elemental
Executors of an ancient pact,
To multiply the world like the act
Of begetting. Sleepless. Bringing doom.

They prolong this hollow, unstable world
In their dizzying spider’s-web;
Sometimes in the afternoon they are blurred
By the breath of a man who is not dead.

The crystal spies on us. If within the four
Walls of a bedroom a mirror stares,
I’m no longer alone. There is someone there.
In the dawn reflections mutely stage a show.

Everything happens and nothing is recorded
In these rooms of the looking glass,
Where, magicked into rabbis, we
Now read the books from right to left.

Claudius, king of an afternoon, a dreaming king,
Did not feel it a dream until that day
When an actor showed the world his crime
In a tableau, silently in mime.

It is a strange dream, and to have mirrors
Where the commonplace, worn-out repertory
Of every day may include the illusory
Profound globe that reflections scheme.

God (I keep thinking) has taken pains
To design that ungraspable architecture
Reared by every dawn from the gleam
Of a mirror, by darkness from a dream.

God has created nighttime, which he arms
With dreams, and mirrors, to make clear
To man he is a reflection and a mere
Vanity. Therefore they aren't alarmed.

Translation by Harold Morland

Sunday, January 9, 2011

coffee and cigarettes

this morning, over a cup of café con leche and a cigarette, i pondered why people smoke. this may be somewhat inspired by a couple of things in the recent past. a few days ago, i watched the jim jarmusch film, appropriately entitled "coffee and cigarettes." last night, i was also asked when i started to smoke. though i can't say that i smoke often, it made me start to ponder why i do smoke. why does anyone smoke? obviously there are countless reasons not to smoke, health being the most significant. however, i think its silly to define actions and identities by what you are not. we do it a lot, but it seems somewhat inane to define yourself by what you are not. its something politicians or easily manipulative freshman do with their time, not to be overly judgmental.

regardless, i started thinking what caused me to start doing something that i actually detested when i was younger. the fact is that i love the act of smoking, especially with a cup of coffee on sunday mornings. its a liberating experience, something that brings me back to my good friends in iowa. a cure for the dreaded hangover that i was dealing with on that particular morning. it still feels like a motion picture every time i go back to that day; driving to some crummy restaurant, still dizzy, eating eggs and english muffins over that steaming cup of americano. the reason then that i started is because of friends, as the thesis by christakis and fowler (2008) has empirically demonstrated a couple years ago. i actually do agree with the premise of their study and think that many people begin smoking because of their peers. this, however, does not fully answer the question why these tendencies persist. it seems so irrational to continue to do something after you know what it will do to you. so why do these things endure?

this seems like a good question to be first answered through the deconstruction of smoking, at least in order to find the phenomenological and social allure of the act. for me personally, it has to do with the fact that i love the possibility of detaching. if in a crowded bar, it gives me a great chance to leave, to escape from the seemingly artificial conglomerate of fake smiles and shallow conversation that comes with a couple of drinks. i find the need to retreat to the backstage, as erving goffman would say, in order to find myself and relieve some of the anxiety i experience being surrounded by the myriad of flashing lights, multi-lingual screaming, and amateur dancing. in the same token, smoking is the very thing that brings some together. i couldn't count how many times the act of smoking has gotten me closer to others, whether it be some random person i just happen to ask for a light or close friends sitting around smoking hookah.

no matter where, i revel in the smoke as it leaves the end of my cigarette: this free-flowing masterpiece that nature creates through its various dynamic laws. i find that the smoke is something really refreshing to stare at in amazement. some may find that its relaxing feeling going through the emotions; the inhale, slow hesitation, and then the prolonged exhale that follows. i've heard anecdotal evidence that some studies have even shown that this deep breath helps up us to relax and just breathe, which most of us forget to do amidst the fast-paced, and at times disorienting, thing called life.

obviously, we see the disadvantages of smoking, but maybe this would be interesting for some to reflect on in the future. i know i certainly plan on reflecting what actually constitutes the phenomenology of smoking. its a rather interesting concept, if i do say so myself. until the next time.

cheers.

Monday, January 3, 2011

bukowski

love is a fog that burns with the first daylight of reality.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

november's m3

ac and dell - modern love (wasted)
matthew dear - elementary lover (feat. mobius band)
julian lynch - just enough
how to dress well - can't see my own face
bibio - ambivalence avenue
best coast - when i'm with you
the xx - crystalized (the neon lights remix)
delorean - stay close (sun airway remix)
evan voytas - sad, like hearts can be
astrud - nostalgia es una arma
glitch mob - drive it like you stole it (king fantastic remix)
theophilus featuring solange - flying overseas
twin shadow - for now

also:
century of the self series from bbc and...
the ascent of money are some interesting videos...

Monday, October 25, 2010

Camus_The Myth of Sisyphus

Now the main thing is done, I hold certain facts from which I cannot separate. What I know, what is certain, what I cannot deny, what I cannot reject—this is what counts. I can negate everything of that part of me that lives on vague nostalgias, except this desire for unity, this longing to solve, this need for clarity and cohesion. I can refute everything in this world surrounding me that offends or enraptures me, except this chaos, this sovereign chance and this divine equivalence which springs from anarchy. I don't know whether this world has a meaning that transcends it. But I know that I do not know that meaning and that it is impossible for me just now to know it. What can a meaning outside my condition mean to me? I can understand only in human terms. What I touch, what resists me—that is what I understand. And these two certainties—my appetite for the absolute and for unity and the impossibility of reducing this world to a rational and reasonable principle—I also know that I cannot reconcile them. What other truth can I admit without lying, without bringing in a hope I lack and which means nothing within the limits of my condition?

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

the price of winning v. 2.008

this is what obama and mccain spent in 2008 for their elections. also, included is the uk and australian elections in 2005 and 2010 respectively. lastly, meg whitman (R - CA) has spent nearly $140 this year only to be trailing in the polls. it seems as if money doesn't buy you love or a spot in the cali governer's chair these days. regardless, she used to run ebay (former ceo) so the last thing we need is another rich republican in office anyways. this chart is compliments of bbc. my thoughts obviously do not represent their opinion, but they should.

tontería de una familia real

     yesterday marked a day of an extreme anomaly, a sign of how are world is changing. i have heard colloquially that are world is becoming more conservative. i think this may be true economically and politically, because of concentration power in the united states, europe, and the middle eastern countries that have a stronghold on oil and other important resources. the same can also be said for the political corruption that takes place in many african countries and even potentially, though this is arguably more complicated, in the 'bric' countries. regardless, i think that culturally we are divided in a large way. a large majority are certainly be headed more to the right (led in america by palin and glen beck), but one can certainly make the case that many subcultures are gaining steam and pushing the envelope to the left. a few countries have legalized gay marriage, for example, including my current home country, spain, my favorite countries, norway and sweden, and the country i hope to retire in, portugal. last year, my home state of iowa became one of only five states in the entire u.s. to legalize gay marriage as well. though the above is seemingly tangential it demonstrates that even if tea party conservatism is rampant, some places are beginning to budge on culturally liberal issues. enter the story of the day:
     prince saud bin abdulaziz bin nasir al saud of saudi arabia was arrested earlier this year in the uk, and yesterday was found guilty of murdering his servant. this is incredibly interesting for a variety of reasons. first, i don't believe i have ever heard of a prince being prosecuted for anything illegal before. in fact, he was under the assumption that he had royal immunity to any kind of punishment. well, according to the british judge that sentenced him that certainly was not the case. next, the servant that was beaten to death did not just have a trivial connection to the prince, but was apparently was his manslave. prince saud, whose mom is just one of fifty kids of king saud (who died in 1953), was gay. this blew me away. as you should know, homosexuality in saudi arabia is considered extremely shameful and is, in fact, still illegal and prosecutable under law. furthermore, because he was found guilty in the uk, he must spend 19 years in prison there, where he will subsequently be released and, then, most likely prosecuted in his own country for the "offense" of being gay. it is likely that he will be exiled, barring some miraculous leftist turn in the middle east regarding gay rights, but can seek refuge in the uk if he so chooses.
     thus, what seems astonishing to me is that not only was royalty justly prosecuted, but that he likely left his country to "escape" from his identity and express the true colors of his sexuality. unfortunately, like most rockstars his lavish lifestyle of cocktail parties and champagne baths caught up to him when the power went to his head. let me make it clear it wasn't because he was gay, but rather because he was irresponsibly wealthy and undeniably ignorant. you can break any rule and buy your way out of it, but you just can't kill anyone apparently. i wonder if those in saudi arabia know about what really happened? were they lied to about this anomaly? if they do know what is the word on the street, the talk of the town? do they make a precedent of him? what kind of reparations must be made if they do not so choose to denounce him, which is admittedly optimistic and even more unlikely? is going to prison just a blessing in surprise (use your imagination here)? what is to be of prince saud bin abdulaziz bin nasir al saud, the gay arabian prince? any thoughts?